It's been almost two whole years!!

It's me again, telling the world my story. It's been almost two whole years since I repented of my sins and God saved my soul! I've had up and down days with tears of fear, anger and joy, but I thank God that through it all, I am still SAVED. This life is so real and so is God. I know he is real and no one can tell me different. I hear his voice guiding me in all that I do. He wants to be in every facet of my life and at times I forget to include him. Even in picking out something to wear for the day God wants to be apart of it. I remember last year sometime I went shopping with my sisters and lets just say it's really difficult for them to find the "right" outfit:) Since money is still short for me I wanted to find an entire outfit that wouldn't cost more than $25. While we shopped I asked God to help each of us to find the right outfit and. . . (drum roll). . . God did just that! I love that I can go to God with the big and little things. I love that he loves me so much despite everything that surrounds me I know that God will care for me. A hymn says, No matter what happens He will care for me and his Mighty Hand will enable me to stand. Thank God!

One thing about this salvation that I did not fully comprehend was the selflessness. I had no idea how selfish I was until I stopped comparing myself to others and started comparing myself to God and his Son, my Savior Jesus Christ. I have so many battles with ME, MYSELF and I. This old flesh wants to have its way all the time. It doesn't like that I've given myself to God. Anything I want to do for God my flesh will fight for me not to do it. I'll give you two examples, the first is my fasting. When I consecrate myself to the Lord. I set aside a day and fast for 12hours(no food or water). I do this because God tells us to in Isaiah 58:6 "Is not this the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke." Fasting is a key tool in over coming many issues in a saved life. Now, to my flesh. Whenever I get to my fast day my flesh is trying to find reasons why I shouldn't fast; headaches, cramps, hunger pains and anything else it can throw at me. That no good devil is also in my ear telling me that fasting doesn't change anything, or that I don't need to fast all day. or that I could fast another day instead of this day. If I listen to the devil I'd never ever fast.

The second is entertainment. I am a huge movie buff. I enjoy Classic noir(All about Eve, My Favorite Wife), Action(The Transporter, Terminator Salvation), Adventure(Lord of the Rings), Scifi(Star Trek, Stargate Atlantis), Family Feature Films(Buttercream Gang), Romance(North and South, Jane Eyre, Persuasion and of course Love comes softly series). . . Whew, and that's not all, but I think you've got the idea :) Some time last year God began to deal with me regarding how much time I was spending watching movies and TV shows on Netflix. I was spending hours watching movies and TV shows and only giving 30mins, 45mins to 1 hour to God. My flesh did not like it when God starting dealing with me. It hurts to see how much time I've wasted. God isn't telling me that he doesn't want me to be entertained, but he does want us to be temperate in all things(I Corinthians 9:25) and to use wisdom, the Bible says "Happy is the man that findeth wisdom, and the man that getteth understanding. " I must plan my day with God not add him in eventually. God Help Me! I still struggle with this, but God is faithful and is so helpful and loving unto me.

My last post I talked about my job situation. God has not seen fit to give the job to me yet, but I know he has one waiting for me and I'm excited to see where he is going to take me next! In the meantime I stay busy helping others, my family and reinforcing my relationship with God

Until next time, God Bless you all!